It all begins around 2 years back.I used to get this thoughts like something wrong is about to happen to me . At the beginning it was slow and it ends quick. But at time goes on it starts consuming me . The fear I should say. Once that fear strikes it ends up creating drama in my head , like something Is inside my throat that is blocking me from breathing. And that create delusions in my head , like I’m gonna die. And Sometimes it’s not only the fear that consumes me. It’s the overthinking and fear of dying that scares me. At times I get this Feeling like i have no one which is true in some case; and when that fear strikes I used to wonder around for people to talk to . Sometimes i just blind text someone or called up an old friend cause i was afraid and i feel like I need company during that time . To be honest no one was really there most of the times. Sometimes I just cry 😂 . I cry myself to sleep. Because it usually ends up in me eating my SOS pills that calms me down. I know I’m not alone and I have friends that care about me but what can I do when my mind constantly think about it in the opposite way . At times I thought of just giving up and let the fear consume me because I rather not feel like this than feel like this . At times when I go to bed I used to keep my door unlocked in purpose so when something happens at night my friends can come quickly and help me or I know this sounds bad , if I end up dying my body would be discover early . I used to think like that . But the thing I learn from this panic attack and the main thing I wanna point out from Here is that , the mind is so powerful that sometimes it puts you in a situation that you don’t want to be but you are more powerful. You’re the one who can controls your mind . If someone who’s facing the same thing is reading this .. you’re not alone .. this is not a cry for help although it is kinda but it’s more of an awareness. I know at times we’re afraid and we don’t know what to do but surrounding yourself with the right people will help and learning to control your mind even though it’s hard but telling yourself that you’ll get through this . Everything will be okay at the end. If it’s not okay , it’s not the end .
Love
